Tonight, I can’t sleep. So were the past few nights that were sleepless.
But what’s the difference between tonight and the rest of the other nights - I feel at ease.
It’s been hard going through the ups and downs and finding away to get past everything. I know for sure that what I feel is real and I can finally take a step back and look at everything. Sure, I want to still “play” (as you say) around with you.
I hope that you understand me the way I will try to for you. Because at the end of the day, you matter a whole lot more than we could ever realise. And I know that I matter to you too.
All the fights and squabbles makes us inevitably stronger and as much as we both don’t look forward to it, we have to admit that we’re okay. A whole lot better than we think. Nothing is going to stand in our way, ever.
I must add that it’s not easy for me to come to this stage because we know what we’ve been through but I like where I am. Right now. I’m supposed to be asleep, it’s almost 5 and I got to be up at 8. But that’s okay. I can do this. I used to tell myself “Mind over Matter” til a certain stage where it lost its meaning.
Well, tonight I realise that you’re not going anywhere and neither am I. You make me a better person each day, even though you may not be the best. And that’s okay, because I’m not either. But what I do hope for is that you can say the same about the way you feel about me and how I make you feel.
It’s almost three years or rather 2 years and 3 months to be exact- that’s nothing compared to how long we’ve been friends.
I’m gonna learn to be better. To be less sour. There are far worst things that can happen when we’re not around each other. That’s because I need you and want you as much as you need and want me. There’s no such thing as I need you or want you more. I’ve been selfish and you’ve been selfish. We learn from each other, everyday. We are the same.
The different forms of love and care does not mean one feels more than the other. That’s why we’re two individuals lucky enough to meet each other. So, I’m going to try my best to be the best.
For you, Danya.
